Today I was challenged and it was my Stoic beliefs and philosophy that rescued me from the pits of despair. Well that is a little hyperbole, but the event could have sucked if I let it. Every Tuesday and Thursday I ride my bike over to Karen’s house to play with Chief for a few hours. I do this for a couple reasons. One it is a nice break for me and two it helps Karen out a bit so he isn’t so crazy when she gets home. It is a nice ride almost bike laned the whole time with a few jaunts throw neighborhoods. Nothing super sketchy. I can usually make the trip from my place to hers in 50ish minutes.
Ok so I messed up…I didn’t write 500 words yesterday. Fack. I am sorry Kelli…I have failed you! However, I decided to use this as a point to grow and diverge from old bad habits. I used to be and still am to a degree a perfectionist. Old Rabah (weird referring to yourself in the third person) would have quit the 30 day commitment seeing it as imperfect and incomplete.
Today I awoke with all the excitement in the world. Another wonderful day in Austin. After my morning stretching routine and meditation, I ate breakfast and all was well in the world. Until I arrived at my favorite restaurant/work place, Thai Fresh. If you haven’t been here I highly recommend it is a great spot and legit food. However, everything has changed…EVERYTHING.
The more I dive down the rabbit hole the more I discover. I am starting to think writing everyday might have the same paradigm shifting impact that removing television had on my life. I find a lot of value in accurate self-reflection, but the problem is I suck at it. I don’t know why, but when I write I can’t bullshit. I am like Jim Carrey on Liar Liar.