Healing and understanding was a huge component of almost everyone’s talk. The basic needs of a human being in terms of touch, laughter, engagement etc. are very rarely met in modern day humans. The ability to play is lost in a lot of people. If you don’t believe me, go and ask someone, “What do you do for fun?” So many of them will not have an answer and will be nonplussed by the question because they have never even considered it before.
I have been on the quest for human optimization for a few years now. Once the quantified self movement started I really dived into what makes a human operate optimally. What are the main drivers of happiness and health? All these questions ultimately led me to CrossFit. I saw a lot of positives in CrossFit (and still do), but there was something missing.
Today I was challenged and it was my Stoic beliefs and philosophy that rescued me from the pits of despair. Well that is a little hyperbole, but the event could have sucked if I let it. Every Tuesday and Thursday I ride my bike over to Karen’s house to play with Chief for a few hours. I do this for a couple reasons. One it is a nice break for me and two it helps Karen out a bit so he isn’t so crazy when she gets home. It is a nice ride almost bike laned the whole time with a few jaunts throw neighborhoods. Nothing super sketchy. I can usually make the trip from my place to hers in 50ish minutes.
Ok so I messed up…I didn’t write 500 words yesterday. Fack. I am sorry Kelli…I have failed you! However, I decided to use this as a point to grow and diverge from old bad habits. I used to be and still am to a degree a perfectionist. Old Rabah (weird referring to yourself in the third person) would have quit the 30 day commitment seeing it as imperfect and incomplete.
Today I awoke with all the excitement in the world. Another wonderful day in Austin. After my morning stretching routine and meditation, I ate breakfast and all was well in the world. Until I arrived at my favorite restaurant/work place, Thai Fresh. If you haven’t been here I highly recommend it is a great spot and legit food. However, everything has changed…EVERYTHING.
The more I dive down the rabbit hole the more I discover. I am starting to think writing everyday might have the same paradigm shifting impact that removing television had on my life. I find a lot of value in accurate self-reflection, but the problem is I suck at it. I don’t know why, but when I write I can’t bullshit. I am like Jim Carrey on Liar Liar.